I’m thrilled, privileged and overwhelmed to announce that I’m the new ambassador for Bipolar UK.
From the age of 15 I knew that I was feeling and thinking differently from others. After years of misdiagnosis and being prescribed the wrong medication, it wasn’t until March 2018 at the age of 27 I was a diagnosed as being bipolar and so almost overnight, a huge weight was lifted and loaded. I spent the following year educating myself as did the loved ones around me. Bipolar UK played a huge part in that, albeit unbeknown to them. They kept me company during the long, lonely nights. Then, in March 2019 a year to the day that I was diagnosed, I publicly came out about my bipolar with a letter to my younger self, published in Happiful Magazine. Thereafter, I quickly realised that I was not alone with my feelings and my thoughts. The outpouring of support and the people sharing their stories were both overwhelming and humbling. It was then that I knew that if I only had the ability to help one person, that would be one less person who wouldn’t feel alone and that in turn, would help me to get out of bed in the morning.
I won’t lie to you, the first time Bipolar UK reached out to me I wasn’t ready to be any more public than I was already about my bipolar. I soon remembered that 15-y-o April, a scared teenager, unsure which of her feelings or thoughts were real, in a continuous battle between the rational and irrational parts of her brain… constantly being told that ‘everyone has a bad day’. If only that “April” had had a support network and been aware of organisations such as Bipolar UK at that time, and had someone like the ambassador I hope to become for you then maybe there will be a lot less scared, lonely people out there feeling that their differences makes them wrong somehow.
I’ll leave you with two final snippets, the first of which is what I’ll always remind those with this superpower… It’s crippling, it’s exhausting and it can be embarrassing but it is not a failure in our strength and character as humans.
And finally, when I was diagnosed and I told my Dad, the first thing he said, before anything else was ‘I always knew there was a spark of genius in you’…
So, my promise to you and those I meet along the way on our journey of living with bipolar is to constantly remind you of your strength and genius. I don’t have it anywhere near figured out yet but through the highs, lows and whatever that in-between bit is, we can learn together. Let’s talk Bipolar!
You’re Not Alone – “I’m thrilled to be joining the Bipolar UK family.”: view
In The Mist Of Time – “If you got out of bed today, this is a huge achievement. Do. Not. Belittle. It.” : view
The Mighty Bi Bis – “I’d like to preface this article with the fact that I am not a mental health care professional, nor am I a sexuality specialist; I am simply someone who is bisexual, has bipolar disorder and is keen to understand more”: view
Your Mental Health Lies To You – “I’m sure many of you who are reading this are familiar with the ritual of either sitting on the edge of your bed or sofa staring blankly into nothingness for gawd knows how long for no reason whatsoever. It’s not until maybe the next day when it dawns on you that your brain simply pushed you into a kind of paralysis. Yep, I like to call this the “Kill Bill” syndrome. I hit this head space and all I can do is channel my inner Uma Thurman and just go ‘wiggle your big toe’! I’m hoping that at least one of the following lessons will be the wiggle you need to get up off the bed or sofa…”: view
Happiful Magazine – April Kelley on Bipolar and Bisexuality: view